Off day.........What is in MY MIND???

Since joining Accident and Emergency department, i never feel that i am a houseman.

There are three reasons why i am feeling so:

1) I am staff nurse, JM, PPK, MA in my department >>> not only clerking case, but also do ECG, give medication, put up IV drip, take vital signs.


2) I was treated like a kid, (as were other HOs) by our boss>> must obey his command........just hope to tell him that "Boss, i know how to behave myself."

3) The shift (or flexi hour) working time---- could not adapt to the interrupted sleeping hours yet, esp after the new rules come out (to do ambulance calls post nite)

When u pay a very high expectation on something, it tends to let u down......i guess everyone understands this very well. Yet, i feel depressed when this new working environement dissapointed me.

I tried hard not to complain, but keeping quiet is actually a way of running away from problem..........this is what i learn after one year of Housemanship.

Some say that i have become more agrressive if compared to one year ago, but to my relieve, some praise that i became more mature and brave to fight back if there is unfair issue.....huh?? i looked like a coward when i first join the work force, is it??

No matter what happened, no matter how our superiors treat us, no matter what KKM going to do to us (either to extend our service longer, stop paying our COLA, or just give us RM500 as bonus at end of the year), we still need to WORK, and SLEEP, and EAT. We still pray for simple things everyday........less new cases during our oncalls (means less people fall sick.........we are very kind, right?? hehe), can have more leaves or off days (so that we can recharge our energy in order to service for the mankind.....lame) and last but not least, won't make any great mistakes and cause harm to our patients.