28.01.10

28.01.10 The day that i would never forget.
When a nice fine day turned out to be the most unlucky day at the very last moment.
It was my off day for this week (A and E dept HO entitled one day off per week). I was in a very good mood.
In the morning, i ate breakfast with my frens, then cleaned and tidied my room.....felt so satisfied when everything is in order.
Afternoon time, ate dimsum with another two frens who were also as free as me. Although it looked very weird to eat dimsum at noon, i enjoyed it very much. The delicious lunch was followed by my favourite pastime, shopping.
Then, there comes my fitness plan for this few mths......jogging.
My prayer worked as the weather is just nice for jogging in DR park in the evening. Exercising with a few good friends is good for your health and also an ideal way of closer bonding among friends.
After dinner, i was excited to have an outing again since i am doing night shift the next day, which means i still have one more day to rest.
But while we were happily walking back to my fren's car after drinking tea in a famous cafe somewhere in Ipoh, my handbag was snatched suddenly!!!! It happened so fast that i could not figure out what happenned.
When i turned my head around after a few seconds, i saw two motorcyclists with one of them holding my bag, riding a motorbike speeding away from me. The bike was few metres away and i was unable to see the plate number........seems like it was covered. None of my friends noticed the incident because everyone is going to get into the car. I was not hurt at all and still standing 'safely' besides the car.
At that moment, i could only come out with soft cry "My handbag........" while looking at the snatch thief fleeing away.
I have my handphone, my beloved "Elle" purse, cash rm140, credit cards and ATM cards, room keys and car keys in it................
So, guess everyone knows what to do next........
My friends lend me their handphone to call home (informed my parents that i was safe but my phone was not with me, so don't get cheated if someone call them using my phone.), called up bank to block the usage of ATM cards and credit cards. Then, made police report.........
When everything was settled, it was almost 1am. Felt so depressed because i could not get into my room in hostel as my keys was inside the bag. Luckily one of my colleague was doing night shift and i was able to rest in her room for a night while waiting for my roomate to come back the next day from KL.
If anyone asked me what was my feeling since the incident, i would say that i was not depressed by losing my belongings.......but felt sorry to trouble my friends that accompanied me to make police report, brought me to JPN to get a new IC, JPJ for a new license, get a new SIMcard for handphone.
I was lucky that it was their off day, so that they can drive me to settle all those stuff but was unlucky for them becos half day was spent with me.
Thanx to tan, koay and wong for accompanying me to police station, JPN and JPJ. Felt so secure with u all.
Thanx to ting for ur nice sleeping shirt, towel and a collared t-shirt for me to take photo for my new IC.
Thanx to Azila for allowing me to sleep on her bed, hahaha
Thanx to Lou for offering ur room to rest.
Thanx to koay for ur toothbrush, ur precious time, and ur offer to use ur extra handphone.
Thanx to tan kc for lending me ur extra handphone, ur extra wallet and it was just lucky that you are there to lead the way to JPN..........and trust me, the breakfast at ur hometown is not bad.
All those help sounds like a petty minor stuff. But when u do not have anything with u, not even a sen, unable to enter ur room, all these offers make a great difference and bring warm to ur heart.
For those frens that i forgot to mention, i want to express my gratitude for ur care and offer.
It is really very troublesome to get replacement for ur important documents and cards.........so lesson to learn: beware of ur belongings esp for females walking by the roadside, ur bag can be snatched very easily by those 'professional' snatch thief. It was not always safe eventhough u r with a group of frens.

Off day.........What is in MY MIND???

Since joining Accident and Emergency department, i never feel that i am a houseman.

There are three reasons why i am feeling so:

1) I am staff nurse, JM, PPK, MA in my department >>> not only clerking case, but also do ECG, give medication, put up IV drip, take vital signs.


2) I was treated like a kid, (as were other HOs) by our boss>> must obey his command........just hope to tell him that "Boss, i know how to behave myself."

3) The shift (or flexi hour) working time---- could not adapt to the interrupted sleeping hours yet, esp after the new rules come out (to do ambulance calls post nite)

When u pay a very high expectation on something, it tends to let u down......i guess everyone understands this very well. Yet, i feel depressed when this new working environement dissapointed me.

I tried hard not to complain, but keeping quiet is actually a way of running away from problem..........this is what i learn after one year of Housemanship.

Some say that i have become more agrressive if compared to one year ago, but to my relieve, some praise that i became more mature and brave to fight back if there is unfair issue.....huh?? i looked like a coward when i first join the work force, is it??

No matter what happened, no matter how our superiors treat us, no matter what KKM going to do to us (either to extend our service longer, stop paying our COLA, or just give us RM500 as bonus at end of the year), we still need to WORK, and SLEEP, and EAT. We still pray for simple things everyday........less new cases during our oncalls (means less people fall sick.........we are very kind, right?? hehe), can have more leaves or off days (so that we can recharge our energy in order to service for the mankind.....lame) and last but not least, won't make any great mistakes and cause harm to our patients.

她，还是走了

她，还是走了........

她被推进来的时候，喘得很，抽了几次ABG，给了氧气，她慢慢的有了好转，可是她还是看起来随时会collapse，MO决定插喉管.......

本来想自告奋勇要插，可是眼见病人的情况不允许任何怠慢，就让MO来做。

满容易的，喉管顺利插进，她的心跳却慢了，即时为她做心脏复苏，心跳恢复正常。

可是她的手脚冰冷，身体的氧气没法被探测器探测到，我们一直在她的身边守着她，BAGGING，帮她取暖........然后，她的心跳再次慢了，我们再急救........恢复正常了一会儿，正当我们准备送她上病房，她的心跳停止了，我真的很希望她可以撑得住，因为她其实没那么严重的。

急救了快半个小时,希望破灭了，她已经离开了........
看着她, 一直问自己, 之前做的都是多余的吗??!!?

为什么？？ 到底哪里出错？？

看着她的老伴，觉得很心酸。那位老公公显得很平静,他已经预料到了吗? 还是一时无法接受??

或者, 我不应该这么执著, 可能她已经是时候该走了.........老婆婆, 请一路走好..........

生日快乐

今天是一月一号，我照常上班。

急症室来了一位患上末期癌症的病人，因为积水造成全身水肿，肚子胀得令她呼吸困难。

我问了她叫什么名字和年龄，她说忘了自己几岁， 我转身问了她的儿子，他的儿子说：今天刚满六十四岁。

我看了看病人的身份证，她的生日真的是今天。

那一刻，很想祝贺她生日快乐， 可是看见她辛苦的样子，就把想说的话吞回肚子里了，当时真的很替她难过，生日当天竟然在医院过，而且还是很痛苦的样子。可是， 现在回想起来，以她的病情，可以活到今天，可能已经是不幸中的大幸了， 所以想对这位老婆婆说声：“生日快乐！”